whats going on inside my head

 
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posted by Emy at 1:23 PM

 
Alright so this is whast going on:
I leave in 6 days to go work at Camp
Meanwhile my tonsels are freakin big and the dr. said i have to get them out but i cant take the time off work so i guess im jus gonna have to live out until icome back from work which wont be til 2nd week of august...o well....
But im taking my finals early and the teachers are still teaching and it sucks cuz i have to read ahead for everything and just try to do everything mean time i need to start packing an dmy friends are just not being the greatest help right now.When i really need someone there, they arent there. Its gonna be really hard for me and jordan this summer i think just cuz we'll be apart but im coming back july 10th and hopueflly we can spend time together our 2nd month annv. in June 5th which is this saturday before i leave and i have dance stuff wednesday- my dress rehearasal and then dance show is on saturday and guess what! no ones coming to see me...everyones going to Jamies graduation but whatever im use to not havin people to come see me, so it doesnt really bother me and so its okay but yeah....
I just been really vulnerable lately espically this week i just try to get along with everyone and it just doesnt work its been so emotional and i just have no one to run to so i end up just crying every night just cuz i dont feel well and i feel so alone i mean i know i have people around me for stuff but i dunno i just feel compltely lonely where i just feel completely alone and i just dont know why.. i dunno its just really hard for me, but yeah i dont know im leaving in a week and it seems like everyone hates me or there is something wrong, but o well i cant do anything about it now.- off to go do some studying bye
posted by Emy at 3:12 PM

 
Hey guys-
I know i know it's been a while, and i know i say that a lot but its hard to keep up. I'm taking my finals early so i can leave for Michgian on time- always a good thing... im excited to work at camp this summer i really need to start makin money but also to get a job.
Down side of things we got our hip hop costumes i want to shoot myself they are so skimpy and stuff im debating if i should go to the final show or not...its just ridiclous!!! o well...i dunno what to say but school is almost done and im ready to just get into the summer althou it will be a working summer its okay i need the money in order to buy a car and to go to college...Speaking of cars...im turning 16 in a few months im excited no more askin for rides!!

my new person of the past few weeks is Jordan...as everyone knows lol- everyone keeps askin about him so might as well just get this out there yeah me and jordan like eachother...yes we wanna get serious as in a dating relationship...honestly i see some great adventures/future stuff with him and i know im only 15 but like hes just so awesome and i wish everyone could see that in him but they probably dont just because...i dont know but hes cool and hes super nice and i love to just be around him we have a good time laughing and making fun of eachother its just great and we swtich back the whole your mom loves me thing...its cute and of course i wanna have a serious dating relationship with him but my mom wont allow it til i turn 16 so...jordan hold on!!! lol and we can just be a serious couple lol- on the flip side!!!

i dunnno what to say so im going to bed...~! i'll talk to ya'll later
~much love~
*me*
posted by Emy at 10:36 PM

 
Once again I'm back.

I dunno easter was good really didnt do anything, but i went to my family parties but yeah.

I got a job in Michigan....all summer long, im excited kinda scared but im sure its gonna be great for me, poor Jordan wont have any firends lol just kidding, but yeah im gonna be gone for the whole summer come back sometime durnin the 1st or 2nd week in august. My mom almost started crying im sure she will when i leave its gonna be hard for her but its a good start for right now for me and her since i will be leaving for college in a few years to arizona so im excited.

Oh yah, Alex comes in next weekend from boston im excited its gonna be fun to hang out with him here... show him around and stuff it will be all good just the fact tat im dragging Jordan and Liz in it too hahah

I dunno what to say nothing really special is going on i guess....just the same old stuff.But yeah if you ever wanna talk gimme a call on my cell (yay!!!) or IM or email me or whatever if you want...

~emy~
*Greekc23*
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posted by Emy at 2:30 PM

 
Never really realized that anyone actually reads this stuff...until Kyle told me haha. But yeah. My weekend went somewhat good... I was at the bulls game on Friday and enjoyed the suite we always get ...amazing good and dessert hehe (sooo goood) but yeah game was really good they went into over time and it was pretty intense.
Saturday, though it was a pain in the butt to leave my dads house cuz he gave me a hard time about it, like always, i ended up leaving n i went to Souled Out with Jackie and Andy...and met up with some people up there... i really liked it that night i mean i wasnt totally fired up for God but it was a good kick in the butt to start getting back on track....then we went BOWLING!!! hehe 2 times in like a week...lets just say we thank the bumpers for their help (jackie) haha...it was good thou and it was nice to get out with people. I've been havin a lot of crap going on around me and i just needed to get out.

I dont think people really realize how much my friends mean to me or anyone that i have met. I had a lot of time to just think about it and i really look forward hanging with my friends and just being with them they are like my place away from home. Anyways i just thought ya'll should know that...

Dance is this Thursday....definately am getting pumped for our dress rehearsals soon....its gonna be good really cool because we going to be at CLC for the "show" n im sure it will be a better stage then the studio we are in now which we are all like on top of eachother but its all good im excited...

Okay... i promise this is the last night ill write... Easter is comin up and im so excited because after seeing the Passion my heart sinks so much more and just being able to recognize so much more but yea... im getting ready to leave i have to go get a new cell...we'll leave that story for next time.
Bye guyz

~em~
posted by Emy at 5:23 PM

 
Hey whats up guys-

Been a while sorry i know more drama in my life all over again... hopefully it will get better

dance is doing so good! so excited performance is like June 5 and 6th if anyone wants to come let me know ill hook ya up with more info about that stuff..

a lotta stuff going through my head lately... just been really confused and just not sure what to do so i been totally out in my own world lately... good news thou i got my permit already got my first hour done lol but it sucks when your mom's car broke down so i have no car to drive so i wait til my sister's come home so i can drive their car or my friends cars.... lol not that great but atleast im driving im doing really well thou!! yay!

5 mon.'s til my bday n ill be 16 finally!!! grr hehe but yeah o well! so i dunno what to say havent realyl been productive lately so i have nothing really to say but just to let anyone know if you never need anything feel free to call me on my cell


~emy~
*greekc23* (aim)
-Smile830@earthlink.net -(email)
posted by Emy at 9:25 PM

 
O MAN I FORGOT I PASSED MY PERMIT TEST WOOOT WOOT!!! hehe so excited im gonna drive... people ill let ya know a half an hour before i get out on the road, so you got time to get off hehe.... just kidding im really good---- um not that i would know... cuz um of course i dont drive illegaly!!! Id never in my life do that ... thats bad... tahts wrong... it could be a sin (Ashley lol). CHAO!

~party like a rock star with me~
*me*
posted by Emy at 10:06 PM

 
oooo man been so long... sorry guys. Life has been hectic like no other!!! No where to begin. I've change completely like myself its kinda cool in a way but weird, but yeah. I've found myself a lone a lot which doesnt really bother me a lot i kinda like it that way, and cuz i cant really trust anyone anymore.. cuz for most things i say i get chewed out at or been ignored lol.... so im back to writing again its good thou its weird to look back at what i have written a while ago and be like wow i wrote that and i feel that way again, i dunno lol. Dance is going well for all those who care... hip hop, goood stuff....we are beginning our performance its gonna be in the first week of June if ya wanna see me cuz i dont think my family will be coming cuz of something going on... hehe its horrible to say that but so true. O well theres always a tape recorder lol.
My horse has been in so much pain its pretty bad so im there like everyday cuz hes havin probloems thanks to Jackie and Andy sooooo much you guys were a bigg help!!!! but yeah my poor baby... hes my baby. But yeah.....
Soooooo excited for the movie "The Passion" to come out im seeing it tomrrow i heard it was really good.... and im so ready to be in tears. I hope this movie... actually i know this movie is gonna do so much to this.. and we all know that its gonna do big things cuz evreything is in the media and everyone listens to the media so its gonna be great! im so excited!...but yeah.
I'd type up some of my writings on here but they are pretty bad in the sense of like mentions of suicide...(dont be alarmed..)
but yeah if ya wanna hear some hit me up and ill totally let ya in on it....
im out like a fat kid in dodge ball!!! hehe

Rock out!
~laterz~
*me*

"Pink tux to your prom"
posted by Emy at 10:04 PM